Ive spent the better part of this morning looking through old cookbooks and online for food ideas for next week. I know I don’t want to settle for the weight I’m at. I still have LOTS of work to do and I can allow a week of wallowing but then I HAVE to get back to work. The month of July was really a doozy for me and I think if I can just acknowledge that and move forward then maybe I won’t be lost at sea forever.
On the menu for next week are some of my old favorites from my Dr. Phil diet days…I am going to be making his Refrigerator Applesauce Bran Muffins and his Beef & Broccoli Stir Fry. The muffins are awesome and you make a whole bunch of batter that can be refrigerated for 3 weeks so you just make a few muffins at a time so that they’re fresh. They are only 100 calories per muffin and I usually eat two for breakfast for fiber and carbs and then make an egg or something for protein. The Beef & Broccoli Stir Fry is just your standard asian stir fry dish but one serving is only 176 calories with 21g of protein. And its delish! I might share his recipes here when I make them, we’ll see. If not you can always pick up the cookbook on Amazon.
I also had the chance to talk with my dad last night about ideas for marketing myself so that I can bring in more clients. This would eliminate the need for a second job and trying to completely overhaul my schedule and care for Preston. That makes me feel a little bit better. Having a plan is always calming to me – even if I don’t execute the plan as I wrote it, its more the idea that I have a road map to follow that really helps me feel at peace about my life. So food plans and work/marketing plans are a good place to start.
The weather in Chicago today is right around 75 degrees. It is a wonderful break from the heat we’ve had all summer. The skies are overcast so that isn’t helping my gloomy mood but I know that getting outside, maybe chasing after Preston on his bike, will help lift my spirits and my energy. I only have one client tonight (down from three scheduled) but I will be home early enough to possibly start working on organizing my living space. I am going to have to push myself really hard to get to work but I know that having a clean and orderly living space will help me feel calmer on the inside. Maybe I’ll even go to bed a little bit early tonight so I don’t feel like a zombie tomorrow
I am looking forward to a few things in the coming months and focusing on those things are sometimes helpful when I feel so blah…
This weekend Preston and I are heading into the city (a place that always gives me life!) to help my aunt with a few things. My two amazing friends, Heidi and Liz are going to be hanging with Preston while I work and then we will hopefully all spend some time together. Social and out of the house are my main goals for my weekends and it appears as though I will be accomplishing both
Next week Monday Pres and I have his orientation for Pre-K 4 He is attending our parish’s preschool program again this year. He went two mornings a week last year and really loved it so this year its 3 mornings a week! I’m hopeful that I can successfully use that time to exercise and meal plan so that I’m not taking any time away from him and both of those things are easier without him. I also just signed him up for his fall activities – he’s taking a ballet/tap class and a hiphop/jazz class. He took ballet this summer and dancing seems to be the only thing he wants to do. I plan on encouraging him to try several different sports and activities so that he can get a real sense of what it is he likes to do but for this fall we are sticking with dance.
I’m also excited about school starting because that means fall and that means cooler temps, raking leaves, jeans, sweaters, apple picking, pumpkin carving and all those fun fall activities. As far as seasons go, fall is my #1.
Thank you to those of you that left me encouraging comments, even just one comment helps to redirect my focus and remember that I don’t have such a bad deal going on. It helps me remember that I deserve to fight for what I want even if it feels like I’ve been fighting for a very long time. I trust that God has a plan for my life and I need to be patient and present for the challenging times as well as the easier/happier times. I’m trying…